So, this morning I went to consult with a surgeon about Peritoneal Dialysis, specifically having PD catheters surgically implanted in preparation for Dialysis.

Ye Gods, I don’t want to do this. But I don’t feel like dying yet, so I guess I have to.

Surgery is now scheduled for early May. When I was asked if that was ok, I did respond honestly and said that, “none of this is ok and I’m barely holding it together”, but that’s not helpful so I followed up with, “sure”. I’m a nice guy that way.

So, this morning I go to consult with a surgeon about Peritoneal Dialysis, specifically having PD catheters surgically implanted in preparation for Dialysis. I had hoped that this day would never come. Now that it’s here, I am feeling a wide range of conflicting emotions.

Did I do enough to prevent getting here?

Did I push alternate theories, did we really find the cause, and is there still some larger problem looming?